2/3 of the months are over - Crisis

I feel like the story is going nowhere. I feel like I shouldn't have abandoned my much more promising project in November to start this one. I needed the break, I didn't feel ready for the story, still I don't feel ready. But at the moment it is hard to say if that is true since I feel like I'm horrible at writing itself and unable to produce words in a manner that would satisfy even... oh I don't know who. I just suck.
I wish I would be able to tell my stories in the way they deserve. The ideas are there, but my writing just won't get better. Worse actually what is really really depressing.
So enough self-pity for a day. I stop write here and try to get at least a few paragraphs done.